Whatever they did to me is set to ruin everything. I'm trying to write some "homework" code for one of the companies, and I'm slogging through the most basic shit and being constantly interrupted with "down" feelings and other bullshit. I'm slow and dumb as shit right now at the hand of these interruptions. I can't think straight or do basic checks that I've done all the time. Why can't I write this very simple program without being bothered?
And I keep twitching, my hands jerk as I try to type (slowing me down, as it moves to the wrong key) and its like I have a knot (or very uncomfortable feeling) in my stomach.