It's sometimes hard to find a reason to live when you are down and you are alone. Sometimes the only obvious reasons I got out of some dark places were because of the knowledge that my kids need me, or would get screwed up without me.
We are not meant to live alone. We all need to be needed in some capacity. It might sound like a vacuous suggestion, but you need to find someone who needs you, like a foster child or through being a big brother or something. There is a LOT of need out there; some kids don't have anyone that gives a shit about them. You could offer so much.
Do you suffer from depression regularly?
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~Torah observant, Christ inspired~
Life Path 11
The more one loves God, the more it is that having nothing in the world means everything, and the less one loves God, the more it is that having everything in the world means nothing.
Do not resist an evil person, but to him who strikes you on the one cheek, offer also the other. ~Matthew 5:39
Nope, its not depression, at least not in any appreciable or clinical sense, more existential angst and broodiness.
I'd never be suicidal, least of all at the moment when I'm seriously doubting the existence of an afterlife and a lot of spirtual insights I took for granted. Pretty vexed at the moment by some of the behaviour of family members and others, not considerate, nor conscientious and absolutely no likelihood of their having an epiphany and change of heart.
Plus people been trolling me elsewhere, when I was annoyed anyway it did get a rise out of me which was all they where hoping for in the first place.