Kymlee: Life Story ENFJ
"When you run into someone who is disagreeable to others, you may be sure he is uncomfortable with himself; the amount of pain we inflict upon others is directly proportional to the amount we feel within us." -Sydney J. Harris
[YOUTUBE="AhR04kmcSXU"]Angelina - T. Emmanuel[/YOUTUBE]
As I'm listening to this, I step out of my own life and play it back like a movie. Most of my friends have moved away, married or dead, I remembered that every single one of them will die. In the later years, I suppose the trick is to die before any of them do.
Then I came to think, what the hell am I doing. It feels as though I am indeed wasting my life. Before and after life, I don't exist. I've accomplished much in my first 30 years (some were beyond my dreams), and so I have another 70 to go. I have no idea what I want anymore or what to look forward to because I finished everything I wanted to before I was 25.
In these 5 years, I've been drifting. Nothing tastes quite right, nothing fits wells. Now at the edge of a cliff with only a dessert and barren lands behind me, there's nothing to do except to jump off. The question is, do I decide to fly or pass.
Enough thinking. I'll decide to fly with my eyes closed.