I only played tons of sports - 'cause most of my friends do. I'm getting sick for not *hearing* my own voice, though. How do I hold myself responsible? For an avid character, I did grow up, comparably in a most ignorant environment. Nobody seems prepared to listen. Sports is such an ordinary activity. There is no emphasis on skill in it, directly, but friggin' layman style practise. I can't stoop down to such a mundane style of play. God, what the hell could possibly guide me out of this sheer degree of boredom, which I so suffer to? I'm afraid video games will follow the same route, if they don't come out with the kind of intensity you really imagine playing, and my work ethic is of no relative issue.