That's just plain old creepy. The heart freaks me out.
The world around you keeps spinning and running its own course but you can't see that because you're already spinning in your mind. It's like you and the world never really meet because you have tunnel vision of what interests you and matters to you, the outside world and all the shades that appear there have quite a small influence on you. And that's exactly how you like it, hence the smile. Oh, you're laughing at all the world "out there" but there's only a small step from sanity towards insanity.
Androgynous characteristics. You might look feminine, but people around you shouldn't be fooled by outside appearances, you're more than capable of taking care of any obstacle that comes your way, physically or mentally handling any problem. It might also be possible that some things you say are completely misunderstood by people outside of "your circle" and it's considered as too cryptic while you are absolutely comfortable with that because you know your own worth very well.
Hmm. Is this even psychoanalysis? Sorry if I'm doing something completely wrong in this thread.
Feels a connection of mystical merging with nature and all creation. Mysterious beauty and feels above the mundane and banal. Private. Is content for her true inner self to move unseen in the world. Allows others to see the outer shell (black trees, etc.) while she is more aware and seeing than others think (face of dispersed light).
the shoheen ho of the wind of the west and the lulla lo of the soft sea billow - Alfred Graves