Celtic Cross spread for you. Basically, there are two components to this spread. There's the cross which describes a current challenge or situation in the querent's/sitters' life, and then there's a staff which describes how to handle that situation, as well as how it will likely play out ultimately. Here's the spread I did for you:
This is a spread about choices. You're contemplating a new course perhaps something more in line with your true passions, and it's brought you to something of a crossroads as you feel you're making a choice between something you truly love and something that makes you feel secure. You recently have experienced a very creative period in your life. Or more accurately, you've recently been through a period where you had the chance to support and guide others in actualizing ideas they might have, and this kind of creative collaboration restored your faith in yourself in a profound way. It gave you renewed purpose and focus and made you remember what it is that you love, as oppose to just being mired in all the petty day to day political bull and minutia.
And yet there’s a very real fear about pursuing this thing in your heart. Some of these fears are not so much based in reality, as they are a function of baggage—unhealed wounds, anxiety and an inability to see yourself clearly that make the path towards what you really desire seem more perilous than it may really be. What seems to be indicated is that, in the near term, these fears may hem you in for a while. You’ll deal with the regret and disappointment that comes from turning away from this thing which really calls to you.
What the spread advises is quite simply Let Go. Your past does not dictate your future. Just because taking a chance then didn’t pan out really has no bearing on what will happen now or in the future. Release yourself from whatever’s weighing you down or makes security so vital either by dispensing with it entirely, or being willing to ask for help if you’ve taken on too much. Right now, people can tell that you’ve withdrawn some—you’re not really in the mix and appear to have a lot on your mind—but they seem to be letting you have this time to sort things out without too much outside interference.
The spread ends with something I interpret to be as much as a challenge as a warning. The bottom line is this: whatever this thing that calls you is, it’s meant, plain and simple. Even if you opt to pursue what feels to be the secure and “responsible” road, the choice you’re really making is to let your fears and doubts dictate your reality. Because these things are functions of the mind, making your choices based on them as though they exist actually is like building a castle on a foundation of sand. Recognize that the choice to free yourself from self-imposed constraints is always there, and don’t be afraid to seek an outside opinion from someone who knows and values you to keep you grounded and out of your head.