It's very often that the songs I fall in love with I also strongly identify with.
This really captures a ton. One of the biggest thing is the base feel is feminine, but has a very heavy masculine overtone/layer. "Masculinized femininity". I'm a guy, but at my core I am more feminine than masculine, and despite displaying masculinity more overtly, both are apparent at once and blends together.
Cockiness and confidence, a knowing of how things work and connect and moving along with that without fear with finesse and control. However there is a persistent feeling of tension, unease, and a lot of energy. The flow is only on a macroscale. On a microscale it's highly chaotic and confusing.
There's a feel of isolation and loneliness within it all. Emotional, charged, and extroverted, but cold, alienating, and masked.
It's also dramatic, bizzare, and difficult to connect/understand. For better or worse, I will always be this way.
MBTI: ExxJ tetramer Functions: Fe > Te > Ni > Se > Si > Ti > Fi > Ne
Enneagram: 1w2 - 3w4 - 6w5 (The Taskmaster) | sp/so Socionics: β-E dimer | - Big 5: slOaI Temperament: Choleric/Melancholic Alignment: Lawful Neutral External Perception:Nohari and Johari
'Consciousness is not simply a sensory-perceptual affair, a matter of mental imagery, as the contents of our mind would have us believe. It is deeply enmeshed with the brain mechanisms that automatically promote action readiness' - Jaak Panksepp