I fear I will die alone because I'm too fiercely independent and emotionally repressed to be a good mate to anyone... even though deep down inside, I'm a hopeless romantic. Or maybe I'm just afraid that the ideal mate for me doesn't exist in the real world.
Too angsty for this thread?
Of course not, it's YOUR confession. It can be as angsty as you want it to be.
My confession. I wore my pajamas all day. I wore them with boots and walked down the road, but nobody was out to adore my fashion sense.
A student said to his master: "You teach me fighting, but you talk about peace. How do you reconcile the two?" The master replied: "It is better to be a warrior in a garden than to be a gardener in a war." - unknown/Chinese
I understand scientifically that we each have our own set of DNA and that we can manifest our raw material in many ways but only change so far from the source - that is, no matter how hard we work or desire it, we cannot become someone else. Emotionally, on the other hand, I just cannot accept that. I need to deal with this soon as it's becoming increasingly clear that certain traits I have, harmless in reality yet in my mind totally wroooong, are immutable.
4w5 6w7 1w2 sx/sp ⯮ ISFP
RLOAX (don't do it) ⯮ Melancholic Hufflepuff
A lonely island where only what is permitted to move moves, becomes an ideal. Jung