I slipped into a state of benevolence about 2 hours ago, while talking to this guy over Facebook. I very very rarely feel such a pure emotion without being able to recognize an ulterior motive in myself. I asked a ton of questions. Got a clearer picture of what was going on and how he felt. No mysteries or seeming contradictions left.
And then... peace. The single desire to end on a good note, use the knowledge and tools at my disposal to effect some positive change. Instead of passively analyzing and being sad. Change that will, hopefully, resonate even when we part our ways.
I'm ... well, already over [him] at this point, but the mess of a situation and 'abnormal' (I hesitate to use this word or to imply a clean-cut line between normality and abnormality, but bear with me here) relationship holds a detached fascination for me. It's like a very, very real case study.. and, on my end, a test of applying the concepts I once learned.
I haven't been on a roll in such a long time. But I think I did good - not in the sense that it furthered my own desires (those are over now), but that it maybe helped him as a person. I think I'll be able to fall asleep tonight.