"How dreadful!" cried Lord Henry. "I can stand brute force, but brute reason is quite unbearable. There is something unfair about its use. It is hitting below the intellect." ~ Oscar Wilde - The picture of Dorian Gray
I'm too focused sometimes and task oriented and then I feel bad because I ignored someone I cared for due to the fact that I was just focusing on getting the job done.
A student said to his master: "You teach me fighting, but you talk about peace. How do you reconcile the two?" The master replied: "It is better to be a warrior in a garden than to be a gardener in a war." - unknown/Chinese
I envy people who are comfortable being natural and unfiltered. Unless I'm in an unusually relaxed mood, everything I consider saying goes through a stringent screening process that filters out about 95% of thoughts before they can reach my mouth. The 5% that gets approved is generally fluffy, not very interesting or substantial, because anything that's potentially even the slightest bit controversial stays inside. Damn e9-ness.
“If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us.” - Hermann Hesse
There are days where I really just wish I could find a husband, have kids, and be a stay at home mom. The idea of having a full time job after graduation is not appealing at all.
This is a classic (albeit stereotypical) Fe-dom thing. I relate to this on some levels, but I REALLY stuff it down due to my career aspirations and cynic nature over the odds of getting a relationship. When I really get right down to it, I don't want to have a full time job. Every job I have once the hours hit a certain level, I will start to hate. I get stressed out over the detailed, technical aspects that one has to do, usually out of fear that it will prove I did something wrong. Thus there's an inherient distrust of it. I have learned I enjoy doing the much more subjective people-y aspects. Going to meetings, planning, acting a tour guide, managing, solving conflicts, etc. All the kinds of stuff you'd do as a parent. There's just one problem: I hate children, and my perfectionistic nature precludes me from ever having a child. I'd mess them up no matter how hard I try and mess myself up over knowing I'm messing them up. I've gathered you love kids though so you know what? Go for it! There is absolutely nothing wrong with wanting what you want. Not a darn thing.
MBTI: ExxJ tetramer Functions: Fe > Te > Ni > Se > Si > Ti > Fi > Ne
Enneagram: 1w2 - 3w4 - 6w5 (The Taskmaster) | sp/so Socionics: β-E dimer | - Big 5: slOaI Temperament: Choleric/Melancholic Alignment: Lawful Neutral External Perception:Nohari and Johari