"This sense of the restrictiveness and the conditionality of the goodness of life makes possible the delusion of Ennea-type Nine, which is the loss of perception of being made of love and so inherently lovable. To a Nine, others appear lovable and seem to partake of the benevolence of life, while she does not."
"For a Nine, the process of losing contact with her essential nature results in the belief—the fixed cognitive perception or fixation—that who she is is not inherently lovable, valuable, significant, meaningful, or worthwhile."
"She experiences herself as outside of the goodness of life, not part of its fabric."
"For Nines, the experience of their deepest nature not being held by the environment is not only interpreted as meaning that who they fundamentally are is not worth contacting, is not inherently valuable and lovable, and is ultimately forgettable, but also results in the felt sense that there is something fundamentally lacking about them. This very painful feeling of lack carries the sense that there is something missing, something unformed or undeveloped, something defective, or something embryonic that has become twisted and deformed. For Nines, this is the sense of self that surrounds the hole where contact with True Nature has been lost, and forms their fundamental sense of deficiency. Each ennea-type has a characteristic deficiency state upon which the personality is built, but all of them are variations on that of Point Nine: the basic inner sense that something is lacking or inadequate about oneself."
"So our sense of who we are always arises in relation to what is other than us, i.e., what is beyond our body’s edges. Our self-image, then, exists in counterpoint to an object-image, a conceptual picture of “other.” The other for Nines appears to have what they don’t: others arrived with all their parts intact and are inherently lovable and valuable. Compared to others, Nines feel acutely inferior: not as good, complete, or worthy."