Im in the middle of a bad dream where Im suicidal and am just about to be taken to a hospital.
And I woke up because I got scared there- because it felt too real I believe.
And now Im debating going back to sleep or not. Im thinking yes.'sleep.
So Im going to now.
08-08-2016, 04:04 AM #3021
08-08-2016, 05:53 AM #3022
08-08-2016, 09:04 AM #3023
- Join Date
- Sep 2015
- 359 sp/sx
- EIE Ni
08-08-2016, 12:23 PM #3024
08-08-2016, 05:25 PM #3025
I am pulling back into the INTJ zone once again and into my first/original typing (the most correct one actually), the only difference are flipped So i Sp instincts. ENTJ type just lacks raw creepiness and intellect that show themselves in me all the time. The problem is that this is the most aggressive 5 and therefore it may not feel or come as a 5 in many situations.
5-8-3: a more ambitious, materialistic and dominant Five, who has a talent for leadership and a desire for achievement. More competitive and assertive than others, these Fives manage to get out of their shells more often to experience life in a more direct manner and obtain a position of power and success. Although still reserved and secretive, they exude a certain amount of self-confidence and strength which prevents their true vulnerabilities from being guessed by others.
typical subtypes: social, self-preserving, 5w6 (counterphobic wing)
similar tritypes: 5-3-8, 8-5-3
flavours: poised, ambitious, domineering and territorial
5-8-3: Most measured and goal-oriented Five.
five with an eight fix: least intellectual, though perhaps the most mentally
intense. unsettled by occasional fits of temper,
sudden outbursts. affixed to notions of power;
attitude of resigned realist. quietly guarded and
insistent, may put others ill at ease.
If 583 is your tritype then you probably have an air of self-confidence hidding your nerdiness.
So I will keep it at this and this will be my typing. I can revaluate the details until the end of time ... but that is pointless.
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08-08-2016, 05:31 PM #3026
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I don't like hanging out with progressives even though i want the same things i find them to unbendy and closed minded. unwilling to look at thinks for an alternate pov.Perfectly robust chickens
Run laps a lot
Pee on the garden
Leap over fences
Cock is a word for rooster
Hen is a type of chicken?
Kit kats are good
Nice chickens don't belong in the
08-09-2016, 03:22 PM #3027
08-09-2016, 07:28 PM #3028
Most of the time. I have a really hard time reading responses to things Ive written.
I get scared.
I see that. Oh someone has quoted me. And I freak out just a tiny bit.
I have a legitimate process.
I quick do a glance over just to see the post at large. Maybe skim a couple words.
Then I wait. Take deep breaths.
Log off for a while.
Come back. Skim it again- but a bit more in depth.
Start writing a little.
Read a bit more. Read it through.
Write some more.
Read it again- in depth.
Read it one more time- making sure to read the parts that... Cut the closest again- even if its... Hard.
Then go do something else for a while. Let blood pressure return to normal. Let it all sink both in and away.
So confession is- I have social anxiety even here, on the board. I am frequently scared to read posts. Frequently.
Im even more scared in real life. I really wish I wasnt.
08-09-2016, 07:46 PM #3029
I often have a hard time reading posts when I know they will be good... Much like I have a hard time opening my gifts at Christmas... emails, texts, loving messages for people I care for...opening anything good is hard for me because I need to keep good things in the future. I need to make sure there will always be good things I can access in the future. So weird I confess.
08-09-2016, 08:53 PM #3030
Well. Im going to add to this that- something kind of sort of completely different...
Any media- I just cant. I mean, I can and cant at the same time. The more powerful something is for me- the harder time I have looking at it directly.
Because- in one part... I want to save it. I want that gut punch to stay- As long as it can. Because its something- it feels kind of sort of more- real- good- whole- than just, most everything else.
So, posts here. Movies. Books. Gifts. Even just, every day greetings. Can be enormous.
Its never that Im afraid of something bad... Not really usually that... Its that... Im afraid that its going to be something HUGE. Something just so great- I dont want to soil it. It feels, honestly, almost *holy* or somehing. This is so weird.
Private I guess.
Its part of why, when I get like this... I usually feel the need to respond when I know... The other person is not online to watch me... Well...
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