Well, the thing is that I can brag how I finnished high school at the very top of my class, how I started my careeer with saving of pretty expenssive multi million project, and tell you how in group assignments in collage it was ALWAYS me who was in charge of organizing the group and how we always had pretty good final results/grades, back in a day when I played video strategy games it was in general everybody against me most of the time (and it was still a fair fight), I am pushing myself to be the head of the familiy since it is obvious that the familiy doesn't know what they are doing and someone has to repair plenty of things, I have a very concrete plan in motion to be a buisness owner despite the fact how socialistic my country is, I have climbed mountains and walked through mine fields, my father claims I am better cook than my mother, I have a degree in my second language and I also have on the side one mini buisness degree that I ended with straight A, I have "connections", I pay close look on public finances and general political climate (and make my own theories what should be done), when I was buillied in school I realized that no one cares so I have solved that with brute force on my own, I was sarcastic with people no one even dared to look in the eye, when I am angry I cut down a tree in my mothers garden ....
Here I don't share parts where I am doing good or great but instead I push into the part where I have problems and that is: why people think I am unfeeling bastard and say that I belong to mental institution, why most of my social activities often ends up in me bossing or fighting people? Why on 10 dates with different girls all 10 ended with them disappearing afterwards or saying they don't date machines or people who give advantage to debating foreign politics to just saying how great their day was. Why were 4 of my friends celebrating publically and loudly on the street when they combined barely managed to win a single game against me ? (and even that is questionable since the fifth guy came behind my back and saw where and what are my troops and passed on the info) ... etc.
I am simply tired of being "the rock" no one wants really close.
Trust me my typing is pretty spot on, but feedback of people about me in real life is often so negative that I just keep things to myself in real life. It is just as they are jealous or scared of me.