I was a pretty frequent poster on that site...probably upwards of 2000 posts.
But, no longer.
The forum was filled with thread after thread on race...lots of them to do with black people. I myself am biracial...
There'd be post after post chastising black people for this or that...criticizing them over issues that individual people couldn't really help. I would react to those posts...usually by pointing out that you can't consider black people as a whole, also that if I were to consider white people as a whole, judging them by their lowest common denominator...then I'd reduce a whole bunch of people to nothing but evil racists. That's clearly not the case, so why wouldn't that courtesy be extended to me or any individual black person?
I just find it funny that they'd silence a voice from someone from a group they'd endlessly talk about. Instead of talking with us, they'd rather talk about us. And, what does that help?
I'm hurt...that they'd talk about people like that, and that they wouldn't let those people voice their perspective on the matter.
I feel like, especially if that forum is any indication of what it is to non white in America, I'm better off going back to Africa. I mean, historically enslaved...and currently ostracized...even in this day and age. Nothing is changing.
It's complicated because another biracial Kenyan-American is currently the president of the whole country...and this one can't even function in society! What does that say? Shouldn't this be easier for me now? Or, rather than electing a black person as an indication of the end of discrimination, is it instead an indication of the futility of the fight against discrimination? Nothing is changing. At least, in my individual experience. I'm still being banned/ostracized by communities.
Is it hopeless, then? Me in America? That feeling grows daily.
What would I even do in Africa?