I guess I just imagine the situation in my head to be what others have called it as a knee-jerk reaction- where I have to make a snap decision- without even thinking my reflex would be to take/put whatever risk for the sake of my hubby.
If I had time to think about it- it would depend on how much time I would get to talk to my husband- as he is a major influence of reason and sensibility
- the more he would get to talk to me and strengthen me mentally the more I would be likely to do the right and noble thing as he would no doubt encourage me to save everyone else. If he didn't get to have an opportunity to be a voice of reason for me and a voice of closure for me as well- it would be important or empowering to have his blessing or forgiving permission to do the right thing -then I don't know what I would do- I might go into an abyss of despair and when I go into that place then there is no point to anything and any existence- it would be a very Ecclesiastes sentimental moment in time where everything is meaningless. There would have to people to look at face to face- I would have to be able to look at the people I am endangering as well- as that would help keep me grounded in reality and something about having a face to look at- the please say it ain't so Joe affect where the goodness/importance of humanity registers home- that would break through the abyss of despair and help be a motivation to do the right thing.
as far as your question asking if I were to die first- making the decision knowing I was going to die- I have to honestly say that makes it a lot easier- I would be able to no doubt save everyone else or not risk them- something about having to think of living without your soul mate when you could have saved them is too terrible-