Adapted from the first post in my blog:
“Disarm” – Smashing Pumpkins: I met Otto in youth orchestra. I liked him because he had an unusual name and played the clarinet. He went to a different school. We had many phone conversations, but were never "boyfriend/girlfriend." He just wasn't that into me. But he introduced me to Smashing Pumpkins, whose music got me through a lot of middle school and high school, so the "relationship" was definitely worthwhile.
”Push” – Matchbox 20: She said I don't know if I've ever been good enough / I'm a little bit rusty, and I think my head is caving in / And I don't know if I've ever been really loved / By hand that's touched me, well I feel like something's gonna give
This song reminds me of Jon, a guy I didn't actually like at first, but he woos me with chivalry (carrying me over puddles, etc) and passion. But the relationship went bad. He tried to push me into more physical intimacy than I was ready for, and he was controlling. My parents didn't like or trust him (and they made my little brother spy on us!).
“Mayonaise” – Smashing Pumpkins:
No more promise no more sorrow / No longer will I follow / Can anybody hear me? / I just want to be me / And when I can, I will
High School. I'm friends with the "band nerds." "Popular" people still make fun of me, but I am coming into my own and starting to not care what others think. I no longer try to fit in with the "cool" kids and am focusing on figuring out who I am.
"Kiss Me" - Sixpence None the Richer. My song with Nick, my high school sweetheart and first great love.
“Letting the Cables Sleep” – Bush: I never seem to get in the place where I belong.
“La la” – The Verve Pipe: And though I never did surrender could you please remember / If and when we meet again we once were more than friends
Song Nick sent me when we broke up.
“This Year’s Love” – David Gray: This year's love had better last / Heaven knows it's high time
Another failed relationship (this one after college) and I'm fricking sick of dating and just want to find The One.
“Such Great Heights” – Iron & Wine: I have to speculate / That God himself did make us / into corresponding shapes like puzzle pieces / from the clay
Lucky me, I found him!
“I’m Yours” – Jason Mraz - our wedding song
“We’ve Only Just Begun” – The Carpenters - Also played at our wedding, and my parents' wedding.