...and keep it from falling apart?
My life is seriously lacking in structure. I'm pretty talented at a whole bunch of things and I think I have a fair amount of potential. But I can't direct my motivation to do anything in any sort of consistent way. I feel like if I don't learn and practice building some structure into my life I'm going to get lost in a chasm of hedonistic bullshittery. Which is a lot of fun, sure, but even my hedonism would benefit from some structure.
I'm a hard worker when I'm in "work mode." Around Christmas I went back up to the DC area where I have a lot of work. I planned to stay for maybe 2 weeks. I ended up staying for 6 months. I didn't go out or do anything but work and stay home more than a handful of times. But I wouldn't describe that as 'structure' at all. I was just flooded with work to do and scooped up what I could in a haphazard fashion.
Now I'm in another state (I suppose both a different state in the country and mental state), and I have some work, but very little, and it's not focused, it's not planned, it's not directed. I have a lot of my own projects to finish as well.
I'm starting to think that this is seriously hampering my progress in basically everything, work, hobbies, social life, living arrangements, the whole deal.
Sometimes I make good choices and start something long term but then I forget it at some point and by the time I remember it again it's long dead.
How do I fix this? Whatever I'm doing is rubbish because it's not working.