seeing as understanding my feelings is hard work, I tend to look at it like a diagnosis. "i feel empty right now. i miss so & so. must be that love bug going around" or "i can't stop thinking about (insert subject/object's name) for extensive amount of time. fuck, i love it/her/him". i put friends & family first (often in such order) inspite negative or positive emotions i may endure due by a choice and commitment to love them. so, while romantically id consider love akin to a symptomatic disease, ive come to find relationships bound by the word are moreso a choice to commit under unspoken contractural agreement barring violations often written in the contract's small text verbally and mentally, including rape, religious converting, murderous intents culpriting or for me, and etc.