I've been flying since before I can remember and was always slightly on the nervous side, but basically ok. A few years ago I developed a full-blown phobia or close. Partly due to the fact that I had a lot of stress in my life and a couple of bad flights, and apparently it often happens in late twenties/early thirties.
I'm flying from the UK to Spain on Friday with a friend. We're connecting through Madrid, so it's only a couple of hours to Madrid and then another hour to our final destination. So, pretty short flights. And even in the worst throes of phobia (I'm doing a bit better now than I was a couple of years ago) I took a couple of ten hour flights to Canada, and last year I flew to Japan over the holidays - two hours to Rome and then 12 hours to Japan!
So this shouldn't be a big deal, and they are day flights which I prefer. But the weather is stormy in the UK this week. And it may be very stormy on Friday. The flight could get cancelled or delayed, which is a stressful thought. Equally or more stressful is the thought of flying through a lot of turbulence. I know the flights aren't long but if it is a bumpy or even scary flight it can be an eternity. The feeling of dread, fear and nausea which comes over me can be terrible. It's not so much the thought of the plane crashing - extremely unlikely I know. I saw a therapist for a little while about the phobia and the conclusion was more or less that I'm most afraid of my own reactions (ie. that the dread might be overwhelming, I might have a panic attack etc.)
I just wish there wasn't always a weather drama or something when I fly. And I wish I wasn't already stressed 2-3 days before. It doesn't bode that well for how I'll feel on the day. And even though the flights are short time can pass very slowly if you feel nervous and fearful.
Any thoughts or sympathy would be appreciated, but don't tell me to snap out of it or "it's perfectly safe"