i have such an odd conceptualization of time, in regards you. it flies by when we are together, but then it seems to drag when i consider how long we have been a unit. i want it to have been years that i have been with you, though i don't really understand why.
i am trying so hard to fight my insecurity about everything, to keep being with you. it's the only thing i won't tell you, that sometimes i'm worried that you're not strong enough or smart enough or masculine enough for other people's judgment. i hate that i think this way. i hate that i have allowed myself to be so permeable to the potential opinions of others that i allow them to shake the foundation of my own confidence when it comes to you, you who constantly amaze me. you who became my closest confidante in a matter of weeks, you who shook the entire ground of my being, you who opened up worlds to me. you who can somehow be my most down-to-earth friend and the stranger who sweeps me off my feet at the same time. you who holds me tight and makes me blush, you who feels so close and so distant at the same time.
Thank you for the comments in your rejection letter. I know, I should be happy to get any comments at all and not just a standard rejection slip. But.
1) Why do I have to introduce the bad guys first thing? Those bad guys AREN'T the central conflict. It's Main Character overcoming his tendency to flee from problems!
2) What do you mean I have to hint that ThisCharacter is the boss of the bad guys? He isn't, he is an independent agent, whose actions happen to make the good guys weaker. Why can't I have more than one bad guy?
3) HAVE YOU EVEN READ THE BOOK?!? Or have you just skimmed through it?
Please... tell me next time I've improved. You can reject my manuscript again, that's indeed your choice. You may criticize me as much as you want. But don't tell me I've made the same errors again. I did the best I could. Don't treat me as an unruly child unable to learn. Please don't tell me I haven't learnt anything. That really hurt me, much more than any rejection even could. And it's false in the bargain, but I'll believe it because you said so.
Sincerely (and much more so than any letter that I'll send to you in reality),
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I'm female. I just can't draw women
I feel like I have to apologize, though I'm not sure why. Our relationship is mutually beneficial; you get free internet and an occasional beer and I get entertained by this whirlwind of whackadoo batshit crazy activity that you maintain around you. I guess I feel bad because I when things get too insane I can just go inside and turn on the TV instead, while you can't leave it because it's your life. I definitely don't want to get involved, though.
You need therapy. I shit you not. Not the feel good bluffing kind. You really need someone to explain to you why you dont have your shit together, what having your shit together looks like and that its really not everyone else. It really is you.
(I'm so glad to get that off my chest, for the record is no one on the forum)