Let me give you a basic synopsis of my life. I'm 23 years old, currently living in Fort Sill Oklahoma. Im in the army, and have a 3 year old son who lives with his mother in Houston Texas. We are not together.
Now here's my confusion, I would say that by my peers and all my friends im perceived as a well-rounded and good man. Yet, I don't and hardly ever feel like a "man". Now don't get this confused with being a trans-gender issue, I'm very happy as a male. Rather for some reason or another I don't have the same perception of myself that I've reached manhood as others do of me.
I often feel like im still a young boy and that I haven't grown up in some sense. Its hard to explain, I'm in no way slow or mentally handicapped. I suppose you could say I feel this way in spirit. It feels as if I haven't accomplished anything in my own opinion to deem myself a man.
This has been a problem for a few years now, and always I will make some sort of goal to try and reach and think "You know, if I can do this I can call myself a man." But when I reach these goals it always seems like it wasn't enough, that I need to do more. It is often my motivation for doing a lot of things in my life actually, including joining the army.
Im just curious if others older than me feel this way and learned to accept it or did it just fade with time and accomplishments?
(I had a lot more I could of said but wanted to keep OP brief.)