I was the most neurotic, unstable, emotional, antisocial, screwed-up kid in the world for years and years. I had the best home life and parents who loved me immensely (and still do!) but it was obvious from early on (my mom said she noticed signs when I was one year old) that I had serious mental problems. Turns out I had an off-the-charts anxiety disorder, which has since developed into some other things such as an eating disorder, which I'm currently battling. However, I got on meds when I was seven, and I've been able to control it much more well now.
That didn't answer the question too well, did it? Anyway, it helped me because it made me a very empathetic, motherly, kind, strong-willed person with a very idealistic and optimistic view on life and the future. I'm struggling still, but my childhood has made me the unique person that I am! Yay.
I had a pretty crappy childhood. Most of this is due to the fact that I grew up in a dysfunctional household. I was very, very inquisitive, always asking questions (to the point of being obnoxious). I was always in my own world, and things didn't exactly work out in my lonelier moments when I wanted to join the real world. I didn't pick up on social cues, and I came off as rather insensitive to the other kids. I had a hard time communicating with them. I was very intellectual though, always reading. Terrible at sports. Just really misunderstood and very self-aware, very mature and independent and precocious. Also, I was quite ambitious. I never let anyone tear me down.
I was a daydreamy and imaginative young kid. As a child, I was very easygoing and I don't require much attention from my parents, I can spend hours alone in my room without bugging anyone, just my imagination alone is enough to accompany me for hours. Ever since a young age, I have already felt disconnected from this world.
I often feel that I don't feel belonged to this world, and I often feel like an alien living on planet earth. Ever since a young age, I have already started wondering, "Why am I in this world?"
I often try to fit in with people around me, yet I couldn't fit in with anyone around me, because I am just so different from everyone around me. Everyone around me are so "normal", yet I am not as "normal" as them.
Curious, talkative, happy, affectionate. Sometimes a bit obnoxious. Not shy at all, i loved performing and befriending strangers. Also it took me forever to do anything, very distracted and in my own world. Played by myself and with friends.
Definitely a similar personality to mine now. In some ways I've matured and I'm hopefully less obnoxious now haha. In other ways I think I was more confident in who I was then, and some parts of my personality were more purely expressed at that time.
You hem me in -- behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.