Where do you derive your sense of identity from?
Is identity a history of events/experiences?
Is it one's values?
How do you feel when you do something out of character? How do you think that affects your sense of identity?
I've recently realized my biggest fear is that of losing my identity. There's this beautiful saying out there, that some people will share with me, of how life is all about distilling your identity. That goes against my very idealistic nature though. Whenever I do something that is out of character for me I will feel a deep sense of guilt...like I'm losing my identity bit, by bit. These days I feel very hollow....I don't know who I am anymore. Which is frightening since my identity is the only thing that gives me a sense of control over the future. And I crave security. I often wonder if there is such a thing as a sustainable state of peace of mind. Being completely at peace with things.
I wonder if peace can only be attained with no sense of identity, no sense of ego.