I have so much fun when I’m out with my friends, I kinda feel like a socialite, I’m really in active in the music and art scene in my city. I like to get people together. I love to sing, be silly, and dance with my friends. I love connecting with people.
When I’m at home (lately) I feel bored and lonely, I focus way to much on my relationship with the SO and start to feel un loved and insecure when I don’t get the responses I want and need from him.
At my old job I was the go to gal and was pretty on point, I’m all about teamwork ☺. Got along with everyone, I worked hard and played hard. But I’m unemployed now….and feel a little worried. My workplace changed a lot in 6 months, politics and reorganization galore (I was there for 4 years). Don’t get me wrong, I like change…but it has to be done right! I felt like the way a few of the higher ups handled things in a very inappropriate manner, so I had to get the hell out. It became an unhealthy atmosphere and I couldn’t stand it any more, I started to grow gray hairs over it. I cant stand when people aren’t treated right, I don’t let it slide (How Lawful Neutral of me, lol).
I worry a lot, way too much and tend to be overly cautious, always watching my back when walking alone at night, I’m really aware of my surroundings…I think dark thoughts. I like to be safe, no skydiving for me. I would much rather do something crafty .
I find beauty in a lot of things (I’m not always thinking dark thoughts!). I get inspired by a lot of random things and am always expressive about it. I probably sound like a hippy sometimes. I'm the one who makes everyone pose for the camera, lol.
Last edited by Sparrow; 10-20-2010 at 12:51 AM.
Fe | Ni | Se | Ti ... 3w4 ... Lawful Neutral ... Johari -Nohari
Being me feels like this Japanese game show I once read about. They locked this guy in an apartment for a year with nothing, not even clothes, only a pen and stacks of sweepstakes post cards. He wasn't told what he signed on for. So he sat in that apartment, drank water and sent out hundreds of postcards, all alone and slowly starving. He won a jar of jam eventually and danced a naked dance, and then he won rice that he cooked on a radiator. He won an aerobics VHS tape and danced, then hung his head when I realized he had no VCR. Then he won a VCR, and it was the happiest day of his life.
Constantly planning, trying to put together the puzzle that is the future... and, more importantly, hedging my bets against such a future. Optimizing the areas of my life where I need to place the most focus and determination in order to climb life's ladder as fast as I humanly can.
Being an NT it can be difficult being present in the moment. I do my best to fight the tendency to reside in my own head. I try to truly focus on people when they talk to me. I pay 100 % attention, and I will look you dead in the eye as much as possible in order to measure you. I try to listen really listen to people. I want to make you feel like you're the only person in the room.
I try and treat everyone like they are going to die at midnight. And give to them the best of myself that I can.
I eat too much, talk too loud, drive too fast, laugh too loud, act silly, and love too deeply.
I take relaxation as seriously as I take my own goals.
Your representative owes you, not his industry only, but his judgment; and he betrays, instead of serving you, if he sacrifices it to your opinion.
- Edmund Burke
I have always found a reason to get up and believe in something, in myself. I wrote furiously for a couple of years and I believed in my work and my future as a writer and it made the time go by. I tell myself my spine is made of steel and someday, that will be true. I have never stopped trying to become a stronger person as I am hyper-sensitive and go through depressive episodes. I have always been extremely ambitious and future-oriented even when I was at my worse. I develop my opinions and views on a daily basis and shape my values and ideals. I refuse to be mediocre and I refuse to give up on the goals that I have outlined for myself. I enjoy spending time with friends, socializing, sex, humor, dinners, movies, shopping, but in the back of my mind, I am always thinking about what I want to accomplish in my lifetime. That's what ultimately makes me happy and pushes me forward. To balance my serious side, I lighten most things up into jokes/sarcasm/giddyness. I smile a lot and laugh a lot. I hardy ever mention the past as I see it as uninteresting, irrelevant and obsolete. I get mad on a daily basis over stupidity, ignorance, and snobby-ness. I don't understand people who settle and have no goals/ambitions in life. Every few months, I need to make a big change and do something random/slightly crazy. I always need a purpose bigger than myself and I have/will always find one.