I am trieing to be the mood enlightener in every situation, which I am quite good at. One first impression people always seem to have from me is that they think I am quite intelligent, tho I personally think everyone thinks that from other persons. I have broad fields of intrests and can talk about a lot what makes a discussion easy, but I havent really perfected any of that fields, what makes me good for quiz shows but other than that I dont think I am intelligent.
I appear to all people I meet as oustanding of the masses, so I really do meet a lot of people; most of them are dissapointed later because I act quite normal around them. I dont like to make too much fuzz about my person or to even be in the spotlight, many people approach me because of that and think I may be an important person that can help them in some way.
I have the ultimative nice boy look and "a guy you want to show your grandmother" mannerism, which made me fell victim to many shady people who wanted to approach me and sell me things or use me.
I have a lot of luck in life, which got me through many things, things when I think back nowadays could have ended badly. People nearly trust me from the first minute they meet me and I try to not disappoint them, which made me a perfect candidate for the more shady business, I tho managed at young age to not get dragged into that.
I have always had a troubled self, a streak for depression and a disstorted self-image. And tho I have always met many people thru my charisma, I always alienated them by having a really troubled inner self.
Now with help from my beloved one and with experience brought by age, I have developed some imago mask for myself I can use to make people feel about me I am quite normal and nothing exciting. I need in a next step to pinpoint my own self-image down so good that I can really always project what I really want then I think I'll be good and dont alienate people.
My girlfriend and me tend to say about us, her self-confidence sucks but her self-conciensce is good and with me its vice versa.