I am not attacking this site by any means, i am aware of the benefits to all the users.
I am just being very honest here .. In my case, for the last week that i have been here I've logged off feeling like total shit.
I am comparing myself to others, finding reasons to confirm i am worthless and basically ripping myself a new assshole.
It's not the people as i enjoy interacting with most of you .. It's the threads (esp the creative projects). I just don't know what i'm doing or where i am going.
What angers me further (i am pissed i am in this mindset in the first place) but i spent the last year picking myself up, gaining some positive self-esteem and now i feel it has gone to waste and i am in this negative head-space.
It doesn't help that after a lovely week off work, going back last week turned into a nightmare and resulted in a meeting with the boss on Friday and my eyes leaking water (I wasn't crying).
I am just so frustrated at the moment.
I know the right thing to do would be to leave the site for a while as i don't want to add salt to the wounds .. But i like you guys .. However needs must .. I need to regain my sanity.
Has anyone else felt like this??