although im notorious for being cool and level headed, when something crosses me the wrong way, its like world war Fi in my brain. my head gets flooded with overbearing negativity and hatred. its terrible really. I rarely lose my cool, when i do i usually go all out, if noone is home i smash some decorations and whatnot. if in public i become very short tempered with people.
I think its hardest for everyone to control fear. I've read it's one of the primary emotions and fear is used everyday to control everyone even though we don't know it. But, that aside, it's anger for me. It's very hard to control my anger sometimes.
Is it that by its indefiniteness it shadows forth the heartless voids and immensities of the universe, and thus stabs us from behind with the thought of annihilation, when beholding the white depths of the milky way?
Anger, because it interferes with my sense of self-control, limits my ability to focus, and over-complicates simple decisions. I like directing my instincts, instead of feeling like I'm at their mercy.
"I cannot expect even my own art to provide all of the answers -- only to hope it keeps asking the right questions." -- Grace Hartigan
Control= having a grasp on it. Experiencing it, but still being able to temper it, channel it and ride it out. Having a choice as to whether or not you're overwhelmed by it and swept away, instead of being kidnapped against your will by that emotion.
Fight or flight. Fear and anger would seem to be the most instinctual.
I find my anger controllable and healthy, so I don't think that's the worst for me. (Fi calls it righteous indignation btw. )
At first I was going to say melancholy, but in truth, that's only really a problem when I let myself indulge in it.
I would have to say fear is the most difficult to restrain/control/face. Fear is rather gripping when it's present. You feel it in your gut, your bones, your blood, and your mind. It's the reason I let opportunities fly by. Melancholy sets in occasionally, but fear is, more often than not, it's origin.
Ni > Te > Ti = Fi > Ne > Si = Fe > Se