I've never had to use a weapon in self-defense, and honestly I don't think that if I had to use one I would be good at using it. I'm pathetic just dicing carrots. I don't really see how I could in the midst of my anxiety from being attacked by a stranger cut out someone's pancreas in one fell swoop with my handy dandy machete. It's just not going to happen.
I also have a very strange relationship with weapons. I know why they're useful and appreciate them for that, but I still hate them. & I mean, really hate them, particularly guns. If I know one is in the same room, the same house, the same block as I am, my anxiety level goes through the roof. It's an automatic response. Interestingly enough, most of the adult male members of my family own a gun [I don't know if that's Southern thing or not], and many of the boys in high school who hunted deer and stuff always carried a knife. I certainly should be more accustomed to the idea, but it still frightens me how easily anyone in this country can attain a gun. Personally, I believe it would be in everyone's best interest if we had strict gun regulation here like in Europe, and as a result the murder and crime would deplete considerably, but alas, no one listens to a bunch of hippies&freethinkers.