How do you celebrate and mourn at the same time? I don't know.
As I'm watching a new year begin, Ive just seen a young life end and I just don't know what to do with that.
She was 23. Killed by a mac truck running a red light. So absolutely senseless. I showed up to the visitation just to give my friends a hug. I wanted to give them so much more, but what could I give them?
I was taken aback to see that they were displaying a print of one of my paintings to symbolize their precious daughter. That's the third time someone has used one of my images to celebrate the soul of their loved one who had passed. At least I have found some way of giving more of myself to those in pain than I have realized. That's all that seems to matter to me at this point. I was thinking of resolutions to make like loosing my stupid gut and ridding my house of clutter...who cares now though. Really. Life is so precious and where has my head been? I don't know. I don't know if I'm even making sense after drinking an entire bottle of champagne, but maybe contemplating the end of life is what we need when contemplating a new beginning. If we must endure death, maybe we can use it to teach us something.
So what I want to know is this. If 2010 were not only a new year but your last year on earth, what would your resolutions be?