Halla, you crack me up!
Good luck, hope you rock tonight.
I usually am terrified of speaking in front of a group.
The only time I enjoyed it was within the last year, where I was doing a Q&A for an audience and could respond to their questions in free form. I bring it up simply because maybe for once I tasted how empowering it might be for someone who does enjoy it. I felt totally capable and myself, and actually felt rather shocked because I could feel people responding to me -- laughing at whimsical comments I made, hanging intently on what I was saying, engaging what I shared and asking more question. And I was also very keyed into what they were asking and how they were receiving it and tailoring my response (content and length) to match the crowd's mood.
I actually could have been in the moment forever.
But it was very weird, I never would have said that in the past or thought it could be so intoxicating an experience. The closest I had ever come was ad lib musical performance, where I would create ambiance on the piano and respond to the audience's mood. Talking directly is more frightening.