"How dreadful!" cried Lord Henry. "I can stand brute force, but brute reason is quite unbearable. There is something unfair about its use. It is hitting below the intellect." ~ Oscar Wilde - The picture of Dorian Gray
Then again, I don't go around asking people whether they think I'm weird and nobody (aside from a certain Kitty) has told me that I'm weird. They're probably holding out on me and I might very well be completely oblivious about my weirdness Meh.
I still think that I am completely normal with all my weirdness.
It's the first word that comes out of people's mouth when asked to describe me, or making their first observations to me. I don't consider myself weird though. It's a two-edged blade. In a way, it's fun, as I enjoy being considered 'original' in a way. On the other, it's a drag. Can't count the amount of times I've been asked to please 'act normally already' :rolli:
People seem to assume that you act 'weird' to draw attention to yourself, and that it's an act or something.
Everyone thinks I am "crazy" but "unique and special". However by behaving in a consistently weird manner I can get away with behavior totally unacceptable in corporate america. "oh, that's just tina again...." Thus I can do crazy things-like hop down the hall like a bunny or email executive VPs about who they should add to their department in what position. It is so sporadic and not political or self serving that it is hard to use Fe to crack down on my behavior. My behavior transcends Fe most days, so it isnt even applicable or useful as I just ignore it.
That's probably a good adjective for me. Some people have a wider range of acceptable weird behavior/speech than others. When I'm around people who are offended by weirdness (which I have encountered a few) I wish I were less weird (well, depending on my mood, sometimes I'll just roll with the weirdness in the front seat and laugh in my head). Other than those few occasions I love it .
"It is not length of life, but depth of life." ~ Ralph Waldo Emerson
I think it's pretty much a rule that ENFPs have to be weird.
Sometimes I don't like it, because every once and a while people will judge me because of it, and I don't like being judged.
Is it that by its indefiniteness it shadows forth the heartless voids and immensities of the universe, and thus stabs us from behind with the thought of annihilation, when beholding the white depths of the milky way?