In general, I am very fed up with being a joiner.
I see it as a cycle.
You start off wanting new experiences and looking for opportunities.
You find what you are looking for; be it a club, association, group, or organization.
Things go good for a while. You become actively involved with the flow of things and assimilate into your surroundings. Others build expectations and assumptions about you, and you are expected to act as one of them. And it becomes your life, your main focus, exactly what they want it to become.
But there comes a certain point where you begin to question it all. Is this really what I want to be doing? What other opportunities do I have? Is this a waste of time?
And you want to drop out.
But you can't, you've already sunk your feet in deep enough. It's almost as if they close the circle around you and won't let you leave. They would never understand..
That is why I am not a joiner anymore.
I'd like to stay balanced on both legs, and not sink into any muddy waters.
I've got to keep moving.