OH, you're one of those people!So we was chatting away (me and my mum) on Monday (it was her birthday) about men and the good times we had had.
Then the mood went sombre and she started talking about the not so good stuff. I told her i only remembered one really bad incident with my stap father (no2) and she told me there were so many more with him being violent around us children and reeled them off to me. Honestly i can't remember a thing of it.
She told of a huge argument we had one time and i didn't talk to her for 3 days. Apparantly she came to the hostel where i was staying, put a letter under the door and fell into a stoop and started crying. I eventually opened the door and she hugged me. Again, can't remember this.
She told me about one more incident several years ago regarding my now ex, i am not going into detail over this one but its very sad. I found something apparantly, rang my mum crying my heart out, she came and saw it for herself and consoled me. I don't remember this incident. So i don't even remember what the outcome of it was.
So i went to bed early this morning trying to remember where i was at those moments, the layout of the house, an idea of how i would of been feeling and tried to trigger these memories. Nothing.
My ex used to bring up arguments of the past and for the most part i couldn't even remember the argument. On occasions, i could turn round and say 'No, i didn't say that, i said, blah, blah, blah'.
The thing is, i have a great memory. I still know my full address from 16 years ago. I know everyone's birthday/anniversary etc. This though is really perplexing me.
Shit happens, i know this. But where are these memories? Can you just forget? If i have repressed them, why can't i get them back?
I know you may possibly 'forget' for a reason. Shouldn't i be able to raise these memories should i choose.
Has this happened to you?
It's as if unpleasant things simply did not happen, drives me crazy when I run into those people.