Normally I'm a pretty calm guy, but lately I've noticed that I've been getting somewhat angry. I can't really figure out why. I have theories, but alas, understanding complex emotion isn't my strong suit.
Most of my anger has been really small stuff that has set me off, resulting in loud aggressive responses. Like yelling in traffic. Actually, I haven't directly yelled at anyone, just sort of yelled like a jackass to myself in my car. Then pretty much immediately afterward I was struck at how weird/useless that was. But I also found myself angry about little things around the house, and the pattern is the same - strong anger and then feeling really silly afterward.
I suspect, but am not sure, that completely unrelated events are stressing me out. I drive a diesel truck and move furniture for my job (not a bad job for a 20 year old) and a day or two ago I pulled around back and parked in an alley (DC rowhouses). It was an L shaped alley so I presumed there was an exit on the other side of the L, and parked in such a way as too leave room for cars to exit on both sides.
I'm inside the apartment (close by), hear a honk and the lady I'm moving for says I'm blocking someone. So I get down there (45 seconds cause I was going down the stairs anyway) and this lady starts barking at me. "What were you thinking?" she says, arms up, eyes intent.
I try to be polite. "I thought there was an exit on the other side"
"NO, there is no exit."
I see this isn't going anywhere so I hop in the cab, start up and move somewhere else. The lady is waiting there for me when I get out. I walk pass her car and try to just give her a nod and move on but she rolls down her window, and in a rather condescending quasi-friendly tone explains: "I'm coming back in 30 minutes. If your truck is blocking the alley, I'll have no other choice but to call 911."
"I don't think that will be necessary."
She gives me a fake half smile and I walk away.
Normally I just wouldn't care about this whole thing, write it off as someone I wouldn't want to associate with, but for some reason, this whole thing just pissed me off and continues to do so for the last couple days.
I don't really even know what I'm writing here, but if you could give me some practical advice on how to chill out that'd be cool.