The way you think and post is so much like someone I encountered elsewhere - actually two different people who were known to be connected, but the posting is mostly like the one. If there is no connection then that's also interesting because it shows that random people can be a great deal alike.
The first man to raise a fist is the man who's run out of ideas. H.G. WELLS
The first principle is that you must not fool yourself, and you are the easiest person to fool. FEYNMAN If this is monkey pee, you're on your own.SCULLY