I always thought ADHD was not a big deal, a while back i studied about it (out of boredom) and found myself with alot of the symptoms, I dismissed it as an excuse to be lazy. While i found myself relating, it never occured to me to see a psychiatrist to really see if i need treatment for it or not. While i am prompt to study harder because i do have some sort of learning disabilities and learning new information is very taxing on me mentally (I thought this was normal to learning new subjects). I usually have to read something 2-3 times before remembering any details, and i don't notice mistake on my writing/work till i checked it again. So i usually had to double/triple check majority of my work for errors. But it does bring questions to your intelligence when you have to constantly check your work constantly and lower your self esteem (specially if your an INTP, sigh). Not only that, for the first time in 8 years, i'am going to college. Going to college was an easy decision for me. I've always wanted to, but my habits and use of time was so chaotic in the past that I doubted myself, and leaving a secure job was very taxing and stressful. But I made up my mind to work as hard as possible to graduate. Of course it's easier said than done.
Today, i begged my friend to give me adderall. Now I did not think of it as treating anything. The purpose was to give me energy because i was planning to take a placement exam (and its a math test, one of my worst subject) and i need energy to study (i did research on adderall, and people in college often use it to do a all nighter). Of course i was only expecting a super energy boost (like a extra potent redbull, lol). What i got was alot more. The effect was nothing "but" spectacular (first drug i've taken btw, so no i'm not a addict), it had sort of a calming effect on me. Usually my head is full of random thoughts, jumping from subject to subject, that for the first time i felt I was relaxed, mind and body. And i felt more confident because i felt focus, and it felt different from drinking caffeine, since caffeine/redbull only gives me wings lol.
Now i'm going to see a pyschiatrist soon to perhaps get ADHD medication if i'm diagnose. I think its going to help me significantly, not only with my education, but on all aspect of my life (btw, i have 3 siblings, 2 takes ADHD med as well as my mom).
Now i'm trying to get feedback on people who might know or might have ADHD, or if you think its just another way of saying "i'm lazy", on ways to cope without the medication. I'm not really fond of taking medication and rather not if i can help it, but i have tried many ways to rid myself of my shortcoming, some of these are mostly memory problems, as well as anxiety from too much stimuli. Some methods i used mostly consist of playing mental games, trying to set up routine/habits to follow, and trying to keep myself on task. Problem is, they only last for 2-3 days at the most and I loose interest. And i don't like doing routine, so that doesn't help, and learning subjects and doing activities only last for as long as I'm exited about it (looks up the billion of video games that's sitting on shelves unbeaten).
Enough of my sob story, thoughts regarding ADHD.......*your a idiot comment*, *quit being lazy*, *play smallest violin*, wall of text.