Are you a part of it?
I've been very depressed, lost, and confused for the last 10 years, and I'm trying to get my self together.
As depressed as I am, I still manage to push through in life, but I always wonder when everything is going to fall apart.
Sometimes I see the things people get judged for and put down based upon, and it scares the shit out of me. Like, losing all friends and respect, because someone leaked some nasty outburst from the past. Is this real?
My past sucks. I've never done anything wrong or illegal, but being the typical INTP that I am, I err more towards the side of asocial asshole, and stubborn prick. Now, things aren't too bad, and I'm wondering what is going to happen when my past is put in the face of those I'm surrounded by.
Anyway, the fear of falling back into disgrace, and my dislike for my current depressed state has led me to try a great deal of new things that I normally would not do.
For example, I dabbled with hypnosis for a while. I took some free course online, but I ended up not finishing. Even though I didn't finish, I was practically sold on its legitimacy. I also started listening to the richard bandler tapes, and the Paul Scheele tapes, and getting into PhotoReading, and into listening to Les Brown and into Master TV, and into Tony Robbins, and Brian Tracy, and The Secret, and all these other things that would probably make me look like a nut around people that are around me. BTW, I also got into the MBTI typing, Socionics, and all this personality type stuff as part of this yearning to solve my life's problem.
What have they done for me? Nothing. I've just done what I suppose I would normally do in any challenging situation: procrastinate. I suppose this may be one of those long standing interests in which I just feel a need to read/experience everything I can about the topic, and feed myself into an actionless state.
All the tapes I've listened to don't really seem to be doing anything other than driving me to write this post, and to ask others what they think of the self-help industry, and what experiences have they had.
I am curious to know..
Has it worked for you?