I think it's definitely good to have support from those around you, & I hope you find that. I mentioned the element of fear involved because you sounded quite desperate in your first post. Desperation is a fearful response.
Either way, good luck in your search.
Thanks. I suppose you are right to sense some fear and desperation possibly coming from another issue... but at this point I am learning to think about why I am fearful and what leaves me feeling more whole. Some changes have to be made and you are right I need to be thoughtful and clear headed, which I will be.
I appreciate your answer and you are right. But also reading Curan and taking a different eye to the Bible, I may find a more solid answer in one belief over another. Maybe it will be Christ is the son of God, and maybe it will be that he is not.
Perhaps, perhaps not. Yet there is a saying: changing planets is easier than changing religions.
But like I said, it's not just community. It's the level of expectations in the community. For example, I go to a Christian school and some of the professors who claim to be hard core Lutherans, it just shocks me what they do. It's extremely frustrating. It's not even that I expect them to be perfect, it's just that it's like a lot of wrong things that they do, it has never even occurred to them that they shouldn't.
We're all sinners, and every religious community(Muslim, Christian, Hindu, etc.) are plagued by laxness of faith of some sort. Within a Christian context, you're not alone in feeling frustrated and wish the faith was taken more seriously. You can reach out to those fellow Christians for community. There are Bible studies and prayer groups to connect with such people. I presume you're Lutheran, and I know Lutheran churches host plenty of social events for similar purposes too. And perhaps you need to move around in different circles too. Christianity has been known for numerous revival movements in its history, and even continues to this day.
I guess to provide a random example of Christians who take their faith very serious and seek to live piously:
I am familiar enough with both Islam and the Amish to know Amish isn't a good fit for me. What is so hard to understand about that? Yes I like rules, did I say that that means I agree with the Amish rules?
I am already Lutheran. Catholic and Lutheran are not much different.
Oh yes, they are. Are you a Missouri or Wisconsin Synod? If so, your church is doubtlessly already pretty conservative, but I'll have you know if you're Evangelical Lutheran you are in one of the most (almost ridiculously) liberal churches in the country.
So if an Evangelical Lutheran church is your problem, the Missouri or Wisconsin synods would be more conservative, and still then there is not as much structure or "rules" as Catholicism, which follows the apostolic tradition and the pope for guidance and interpretation.
If Amish isn't a good fit for you please tell me why you think a religion that you hardly even know about or agree with is a good fit just because you perceive it as being stricter or having more community.
"Sentiment without action is the ruin of the soul." - Edward Abbey