As someone who really no longer practices strict mainstream christianity, I still can't help but check in with, "what do catholics think of [said occult or eastern practice]?" . I grew up catholic and as such will always have some of that programming. I find myself at a cross roads. Ive gotten really into binaural beats, meditations, energies, auras, lucid dreams, attempted astral projection, chakra tuning, nature contemplations etc and all of that seems harmless to me. Nothing there really seems like sorcery or divination. Chakras, energies and meditative states all appear to be "natural" and spiritually clean.
However, when ever I start researching one step further into actual divination/channeling such as automatic writing, spirit guides, and other divination methods, I come across Christian sites that claim all of these are merely "best case" communication with evil entities and "worst case" opening yourself up to attacks. To make it worse, some go as far as to say "any" spirit development (even chakras, meditations or energy work) are of "evil nature".
This leaves me to wonder:
1. if all spiritual avenues other than prayer and Christian ritual were "evil" why would god even create humans with energy centers and extra sense in the first place? I understand that "free will" could be an answer, but how am I to know which free will is "correct"?
2. why is it I'm able to mentally brush away a lot of the Christian metaphysics of 6000 year old earth, original sin, substitute sacrifice of Christ, BUT somehow I'm still easily creeped out by someone writing about demonology enough to halt any of my spiritual work?
I feel like I'm trapped between multiple ideologies and am unable to completely accept either one fully. Why does every religion have to be eaten whole? How do we know that this isn't like blind people describing an elephant and that there's mistakes and truths intermixed?