I was looking through some of my old log entries and found this, it was a concept I've toyed around with for a while:
I decided to write out the "other side."The perspective is this: you are a slave to your environment. To the needs around you. You exist to serve these needs, internal and external, and balance them as you see fit. You work because the needs exist, and you fufill them.
Do not concern yourself so much with titles or supposed mastery - the needs will always be bigger than you, more than you can ever take on. But be a good servant - attentive, focused, compentent. Do not serve indiscriminately. Choose the needs, internal and external, that should take precedence. If skills must be learned, you become a slave to learning that skill.
You will fail. Be humble and honest, make ammends , try again, or back away.
Choose to be a slave because you understand that all choices to bring a goal to completion require you to give up your freedom to do something else. This cost is inherent. It must be paid, there is no choice in this, only in what goal to serve.
You are enslaved to yourself. You are attached to your body and you have no other. Serve it well, choose to serve the needs which will maintain its abilities and allow it to gain new ones. This is a difficult task, do not take it lightly.
Do not be paralyzed with indecision on how to serve. It is best that you serve, rather than be adrift for too long. The sum of the needs will always be more than you can take on. Choose, and serve well.
Allow others to serve you.
Accept responsibilty. The better you serve, the more difficult the task you take on, the more others will entrust you - the more you will trust you. Be wary of taking on more than you can do, but accept that pushing your known limits will be a necesity. There will be failures, this is inherent, accept it outright. There will be sucess, this is also, in all likelyhood, inherent. As you improve, this too, accept.
Thoughts? I see them as two sides of the same coin. Do you identify with one more than the other?The perspective is this: you are the master of your environment. You exert your will and the world bends to conform to you. Without your perception and ambition, the environment around you would have no meaning, it could not be crafted into anything - it would be irrelevant, meaningless. Purpose eminates from your will and desire.
As you observe your environment, you see what it can become. All around you potential is crafted out of raw material and visions of what can be. And from this, and your own action, things change. That change comes from your hands - your imposition into reality to say "I want it to be this way."
You are the driver. You choose your focus, you choose to perform. In spite of uncertainty, it is your continued concentration which makes or breaks outcomes.
Choose mastery because your will is automatic. You cannot not exert your will onto the world - in every moment you are engaged in creating a vision. Know what you want realized.
Prioritize your willpower. What is most important to create? If you need helpers, get them - inspire them with your desires and have them work for you. Craft your desires carefully so they will choose to realize your own - compell them into action. Your leadership will bind them to the goal and give their world shape and purpose.
Struggles in leadership will be inherent. Others will craft their own visions which will compete with your own - by triumph of will yours may be realized. You will create impossible visions - search for weakness in the obstacles you encounter and a more possible vision will come. Surround yourself with those who want mastery of their craft. Learn about the visions they create so yours can be potent.
See the best of what can be and create it.
Or however you want to react, I'll hold off on my own thoughts for a bit.