I find it difficult to describe my lack of hope. As it was described to me, hope is the wishing of a positive outcome.
hope: A wish or desire accompanied by confident expectation of its fulfillment.
1. the feeling that what is wanted can be had or that events will turn out for the best: to give up hope.
7. to believe, desire, or trust: I hope that my work will be satisfactory.
It has come to my attention, via my therapist, that I don't have any concerning anything. No belief systems (not specific to religion) and no faith (also not specific to religion.)
I don't feel that I have a grasp on why it is important. I am completely ignorant to it. My therapist went on a long rant to "inspire" me, activating a hopeful feeling, and I felt nothing.
From what I hear as well is that not having this feature allows for a lot of self-doubt. I didn't realize it, but after nearly any decision concerning anything I just about beat myself to death with self-doubt. Wondering if that which I did/said was actually appropriate/necessary. Future plans success and failure, and so forth.
I'm aware that this isn't a therapy forum, but I wondered what y'alls opinions on this subject are.