Seriously, though, I'm currently at work, and the missus is asleep, which is nice, but she will be awake soon which is not.
I've been working for her for just slightly over a year.
Her condition has worsened.
Her health, her energy-level, her depression and her dementia.
It's all so very sad. :sad:
I have found that I've been detaching myself as a form of self-preservation, she doesn't talk much, but she likes and needs my attention.
It's just scary, she's like 20% alive and 80% dead, awful.
Honestly, if I get to be 85 years old and miserable like her, I'd want my loved ones to help me off myself.
She tells me a lot, never get old, it's awful!
And, to make matters worse, I LOVE DOGS, and her dog happens to be the only dog I've ever known and come across who is a soulless, obnoxious package of existence, the weirdest thing ever.
So, when at work, I am surrounded by relatively negative life forces, not good, not good at all.
This is my third and last day (till next weekend), that I am here, thank god.
I don't know if I can do this anymore, it used to be more... pleasant, okay, fulfilling, but now it is taxing, energetically taxing, so not worth the money I make.
Bleh, but I need money to live, story of most people's miserable lives.
I wish I had no ethics, and I could happily marry some rich guy who'd afford me a life a leisure, that's all I want, to live a life where I am pursuing things I like, and then I could help people for FREE.
In fact, I could still do that, it's been a while since I've done any community service, during the summer time I babysat some boys primarily for free to help their mother out, that was awesome, these boys were chalk-full of life, and positivity!!!
Ugh, my sister is with an incredibly ridiculously wealthy guy and she need not worry about work or money, but I don't think she's happy either.