In terms of the shadow side, does anyone really know what they are capable off in difficult circumstances? even when you are in those circumstances. I'm a pretty fiesty lass, nursed people with really desturbed behaviour perviously - so not intimidated all that easily. One day I came home and their was a junkie in my house... What did I do... I said "get out, get out my house"... no anger or anything - I was totally in shock... shaking like a leaf... he did leave in all fainess.
You really do have a screwed up Venus... I have abook that specifically looks at the outter planets to the personals, but one thing is for sure, you lovelife isn't exactly roses in the garden. Venus also rules money too.. you might have difficulties making it, managaing it, respecting it. I'll take a look... I don't mean to pry but is your sexual orientation not hetrosexual... a banged up Venus like this, one posibility is homosexuality (not trying to cast aspersions, the Uranus square, the Neptune square are not uncommon in that instance).
Once you PM me, I'll run a computer reading from the professional computer (I don't use it for reading purposes unless I'm looking for inspiration)... FYI I don't read professionally.