But if someone turns this against you and says
That in certain way all the time you are just satisfing you animal needs by being spiritual and that by rejecting spirituality you are actually moving away form acting like an animal.
1. You are actually avoiding the question of mortality since you have survival instinct as every other animal on the planet but you are smart enough to see where everything is going.
2. You need to believe in good outcome since you can't stand that something could happen to you children (even natural death)
3. Actually what really make you different for other life forms is ability to be logical why not using this skill in its full strenght?
Would you be annoyed by that person?
In what I am interested in is how much pain you can cause in other person with acting like this. Even if this post looks like I am trying to do exactly that.
I doubt that anyone could cause me pain by choosing to believe or act upon those beliefs in a way different than I do. Many years of learning how to detach my feelings from how others act has paid off in acceptance of reality. I have a great deal of peace of mind at this stage in my life.
If I act unlike an animal, in many ways I am trying to remove myself from this world in an unnatural way. I have innate needs and desires and want to learn to deal with them in constructive and fulfilling ways. I want to bring myself into accord with all that is life-enhancing and sustaining. I am not at all interested in trying to prove I am not in natural process. To not recognize or to refute my needs would be unhealthy for me. It's an integration of all those things that I pursue.
Through many decades of living I have learned what's right for me and take comfort in knowing that I follow through with that.
I don't believe in striving for "good" outcomes but rather with using the unfortunate ones to expand myself. I have had something "bad" happen to both of my children. And I lived through that with many questions and a lot of anger, but through those experiences I learned a lot about what it takes to live and live well. So did my children.
I've also lived through a few ugly deaths of people I love. Every thing and action exists for me to learn and grow from. I don't believe in "bad" things. Grief is part of my natural process as a human and I am neither afraid of my feelings nor of my death which is also natural and inevitable.
I maintain nobody knows for sure what will happen after corporeal death and have made the decision to allign myself with that. I believe that all unfolds as it should. Rather than helplessness and frustration, that acceptance has given me peace.
This philosophy has brought me to a place of satisfied living and I think that is the best any of us can hope for.
I wont accept your denial of not trying to annoy people. Unfortunate habit of yours, I think. It is your close-mindedness, singular focus and stubborn persistance which I find a poor choice.
There were some other things I questioned about your approach but have realized that part of it is a language barrier and probably some of the personal issues which seem obvious to me but are of no concern to you. So - none of my business! I send my annoyance out to its fate. Hee!
You seem to have found here a fairly workable, though awkward, way of connecting with others. Good for that.
I've fairly well exhausted my brain with all this self-explanation (I also experience it in an uncomfortable way of being some self-absorbed!) and don't think you'll get much more of my time unless there's something useful for me there.
