ISFP - The Composer, Producer
Probably Iím the happiest when things are just a little different everyday. I donít want to commit to any particular way to be. I want to be able to be a lot of ways. In my mind, I am peacefully assimilating myself to a lot of different situations, flowing easily between them all. Most people donít understand thereís a lot going on inside. Itís always different, and if itís not always different, itís no fun.
When Iím someplace, doing something, Iím really there. The whole experience is related to that time and place. And people only see the part of me that is with them that day. Thatís who I am for that day, but little do they know that tomorrow I might be different.
Iím reserved when I first meet people, but I am friendly, warm, and outgoing once Iíve gotten to know someone. I really enjoy listening to people, hearing other peopleís stories and learning about them. I remember a lot of the details. I ask a lot of questions and like the challenge of recognizing where people are coming from and why they might be coming from that perspective. I love the give and take of conversations. I really feel thrilled and excited learning from that intellectual energy combined with that emotional energy. It gives me a sense of the person. In any situation, I love the give and take, the playfulness and energy, the excitement and a little bit of competition, a little bit of one-upsmanship. But when it becomes abrasive and people personally attack others, Iím offended.
I have a lot of interests and I can get interested in one thing, and then something else comes along and that looks fascinating. I enjoy using the skills that I do have, and theyíre varied. Iím always on the lookout for something that uses my skills and abilities, that will give me variety and still be stimulating and let me have a mission with people. In my best jobs, I was connecting with people and problem solving and often using tools, adapting equipment or techniques.
My nature is when things get to a crunch, Iíll make something happen that will make it all right. I just know that I can do that and will do that. I love solving people problems.
But part of me shivers if someone tells me their expectations of me, even if theyíre expectations I have for myself. I need the freedom to be able to change my mind or direction. I like to get a feel for what theyíre looking for and then just make it happen and hope they enjoy it. And donít ask me how I did it because I have a difficult time communicating that. Itís whatever moves me at the time. I probably donít even remember half of what Iíve done. I can spin around doing nothing and then spend two minutes and get something done. Itís a whole process that I canít communicate, because itís not something that can always be written down on paperóbecause when Iím doing it, Iím enjoying it. Itís like Iím in a different world. Itís not a task to meóitís a creative outlet.
I enjoy family and friends. I enjoy being with them and doing things with themódeveloping that relationship, bonding with them. I carry through with my commitments and Iím a very responsible person. Deep friendships are important to me, but not too many.
When I am angry I get quiet. Others donít know though, thatís the problem. Because itís not an external, visible reactionóitís more passive, turned inward. Iím trying to think it through to figure a way to get my point across so they understand because I wouldnít want to attack somebody. Thatís something about me, that noncommunication, or withdrawal.
I like recognition. Itís very important to get complimented soon after an accomplishment. If something goes unnoticed or unrewarded, it doesnít have the immediate impact that I want. Iíve been learning my own positive self-talk. I tend to be a workaholic at whatever it is I am doing. You might say Iím a perfectionist. I want people to be impressed with my performance. I donít want anyone to be unhappy with my performance so I continue to perform, and that is kind of a driving force. It has been a constant struggle to not overdo it. I need a positive environment to work in and I need the people Iím working with to support me.