I've always scored INTJ with the occasional INTP result. A common pattern between the two is the difficulty in expressing emotions or the seemingly cold attitude and the high amount of importance and relevance given to logic and rationality and that is true for me as well.
However, there is a person for whom I express my feelings very well. It's a girl I've always loved and she gets all the repressed affection that I haven't given to anyone for years. I'd spend days cuddling together and kissing her and protecting her and in no way I would neglect her needs. I didn't think I would have said this, but she's the most important person in my life. She made me understand that I can actually care for someone else other than me.
However, I keep reading that INTx types do not show/express their feelings even when in a relationship, so I was wondering if perhaps I'm not an INTx but rather an INFx whose F got frozen, repressed, forgotten and shitted to the ground in favor of my T and is now emerging from the abyss, stronger than ever. I am 100% sure of the I and N letters, and I was also certain of the T (97% well), but this difference I have with the other INTx made me wonder if I could actually be a repressed F type.
How come many other INTx seem to neglect their loved one? How can they ignore them or not want to hug them 24/7? I'm sure the girl I love doesn't feel not loved. She's the only one who is allowed to see this side of me.