I still read many books at the same time, have different friends, have many different hobbies. But I don't change them every year !
I have learnt with A LOT OF TIME how to accept my feelings, so I accept more to share some of them (sometimes in a "joke mode").
Due to psychoanalysis (I needed to understand why I was into unfruitful relationships)-that means SELF ANALYSIS, reflection, useful suffering...etc-
Due to friends who don't judge you but are more objective than you can be about yourself, sometimes, when you need a hand.
Due to some tenderness you may have refused in the past and that you see now as a gift...
Due to some people who'll give you shit inevitably if you keep ignoring your dear feelings.
Due to writing...a lot... poetries and novels. Writing my dreams too (develops your intuition).
Due to enneagramm courses I took in 3 countries. Due to 15 books on that subject. Due to still sharing many ideas and feelings about it with one of my best friends who reminds me how I have changed.
Due to some conflicts I don't want anymore in my own life.
Due to some hobbies and teachers that encourage me with expressing feelings and relaxing.
All those are becoming natural day by day. All you need is love for what you choose and patience.
I'm glad for you that you felt on that guy in the crystal shop ! Some people don't know you but are very much intuitive and able to tell you strong meaningful messages. When it's a friend who tells you so, you can't close your ears. Some fights can't be avoided, it's up to us to remain blind for proudness or open up to grow up. The one who has willpower can go anywhere in life. But (will)power alone will never make you happy.
As if you were driving a brand new car with a f*cking old rusty engine