So, just wanted to share my experience. So when i as a kid I was always extremely energetic, social and bubbly, i was very typical ENFP with very developed T (or is that Enneagram 7 intellectualizing?! dno). So my type would be even clear then. When i grew up a bit, I got sick, it was gradual so nobody noticed, they only thought i am growing up to b another fucked up teenager.. I became more timid, calmer, more withdrawn... it was so gradual that it was hard to notice it, it was over the course of 10+ yrs. When I was in my early 20ies, i started taking thyroid hormones. I had huge family drama and it triggered my complete thyroid crash (even tho i had undiagnosed disease for 15 yrs already without knowing). Those hormones should help me but made me almost bedridden. Problem was that nobody knew (yeah that can happen in 21st century ) that the hormones are the cause and they blamed it on me. So I spent so much time thinking its me who is causing it, depression yadda yadda... Fortunately, I was really close to death without exaggerating, when I figured I am really not depressed I just cant fucking walk, get out of bed, etc... and then I switched on my own thyroid hormones to natural ones and within weeks I was to my old self. I felt like I did when I felt like myself, which was completely before puberty. That was 1.5 yr ago and I am still in that state.
The hormonal crash is like some twillight zone i remember unfortunately but it's crazy experience, I was different my personality was different yet I suffered because of it, I didnt want to be like that but they convinced me I want it and that its my ''real self''.
I wonder how many people that hate their personalities actually have something similar?!