I'm like you where I test as pretty even with N/S, and when I read descriptions for S/N or test I often align with S more because I am very mistrusting of my intuition. It's usually right, but my fear of making errors is very strong so I opt to ignore it and put it on hold until I can gain some solidity to it. Really, I am just very perfectionistic and I want to be right/do the rignt thing. A la 1w2. Add in the fact that I just don't identify with Ne even slightly. It's very alien to me. Sort of you with "negative Ni" I must have "negative Ne" . Tests are a starting point. They are not the end all be all answer, and anyone who thinks otherwise is a fool. Except maybe for "official" tests, but I have no experience with them as they cost money, so I question those two.
I also really don't like philosophical discussions. I just get so bored, and am like "ok, what is the practical application of this? What use is this? What is the point?". A lot of the time it gets wound up in defining things and the semantics of a word like "time" or whatever. Who the fuck cares. I don't. I don't care about that level of minutia and I want no part of it. It's annoying and way too much work. I get annoyed with the fact that stuff which is basically self evident gets questioned and I have to sit there and pick it apart. It's mentally a ton of work and I get zero enjoyment out of it. Do I exist? Pft. Ok, you can go talk about that. I'm not going down that semantic hell hole. Fun to think about, not to discuss most of the time. I'll enjoy philsophical discussions when they are more wholistic and there is more of an understanding/common ground.
Really this entire thread can be boiled down to unfair stereotypes attributed to either side. Further, inaccuracy with reported data (which is shotty at best) because much of it is self reported. In my opinion, there is no such thing as a special type, or a repressed type. All types have strengths and weaknesses, and it's nothing more than a theory of how people intake and output information. What happens beyond that is external and different from what the theory is. There are some patterns that emerge (which, as they are external and easily seen) and people wrong try and draw patterns from that. Hence, stereotypes form that makes things look bad. It's a problem of over-extrapolation.
By all accounts this sounds like S, but it isn't. Actually it's mostly my inferior Ti showing up, but that's another matter. Ni is definitely in play with how I think, but I don't apply it to stereotypical Ni things.