Hey fellas, this is my first post here and honestly i have never had an own thread on forums, tho i feel this would be the best place for a first thread since im so interested in psychology and sadly a little bit too in myself. My phrasing is not the best but i will do what i can. Anyways this is my situation: i have taken the test several times and each time ive been tested as an enfp, )once esfp but ive ruled out that option). The problem is im so shy and anxious in social situations ( ca 60% of the time) except when im with like these certain people, at times though when im in good mood and generly high on life i become very very very ( i cant find enough verys) outgoing, witty , charmy and i have these amazing bursts of energy when i speak to people. These energy burst can dissapear very quickly as i beleive im very reactionional and sensitive and can switch mood after the slightest sign of despise from others. Sometimes i just dont care though.
Maybe these are problems of a shy extrovert or perhaps an infp? When im alone i tend do overanalize everything and get negative dark thoughts about myself and as ive started to self analize there is no stop. I also stutter so this is surely a big contribution to my withdrawn anxious form. I really hate when im withdrawn as i tend to hate the world and everyone who doesnt understand me, i also get insanely self absorbed, and judgmental of others as i earlier mentioned. I have felt negative since the time i became selfconcious which was around 18-19 years(feels late but perhaps it is good for u to know , im 21 now ) and im so much away from my ideal and pretty much sometimes true self. The true self who is outgoing and confdent, funny witty, with no obstacles in the world. I m always frightened of the negative moods i might get after my " highs" i just hate hate hate it.
I'm not very creative , my forum name is actually my true name haha. So basiaclly what im trying to find out is whether im an enfp on the wrong track in life or an infp( sorry infps but i wouldnt like this option) i dont know if i use Ne or Fi as dominant cuz if i use ne i have an overly developed Fi, could this be because i was so shy and lonely so i started to develop this function? Id say im egoistic and a bad listener even though i have an automatic feeling o nedding to give advice to people. They are genuin most of the times, not all the times though. If i write much more u wont be able to read so please ask questions i sill try to answer them, thanks!